Mourning a Breakup with ADHD

Bottom Betch Issue #5: On Not Thinking About an Elephant

Dear Zaddy,

When I was told not to think about it

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with the squirming trunk

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I thought of you instead, lying 

with your head on my chest

your taste, elusive as water

in my mouth. As I remember

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the Maharajah on its back

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the time I was glad you fell sick

because I could carry you; rather

pretend. It’s not my fault you’re

bigger than me. As I remember

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and when it sees a mouse

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the time I held you up to that

mirror, so that you could see

you I do. Your lips, your neck,

your manhood. As I remember

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it pretends to be a lion

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the time I confessed being afraid

of the desert that would surround 

if our love were to end. Only inside

you did I feel safe, as I remember.

Love,

Your Slutty Angel

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